Hi beautiful people,
Today we’re going to be looking at The High Priestess.
This card, much like all the tarot cards, can mean a variety of things. It could indicate a woman kept in secret, in an infidelity situation, or any number of other secrets and other things that could send you spiraling down a hole of unhealthy behavior.
For me, it talks about intuition.
Sometimes we want to know the future too much, where relationships are going, where we should live, what we should do about our career. This is not a healthy desire not only takes us out of being able to be rooted in the present, remembering that we have creative power in a lot of these situations and aren’t at the behest of things, but more importantly dulls our individual intuition.
When this card appears, it usually relays the information that either you already know the answer to your question deep down, OR that you don't need to know this answer yet, but should just feel things out by using your intuition.
Intuition is something everybody has, but when we’re off balance, it becomes a bit difficult to hear. We let all the traffic in our brains stifle the sounds of our hearts. This inner voice, when not being obstructed by our insecurities, our need for action, or lack of trust, is useful for a variety of situations, not just to guide you towards safety, but also guiding you towards things that drive you towards being the best version of yourself.
Maybe all of the sudden, you want to try something new, like sailing, or maybe you are drawn to a movie, or a location you might want to live, or even a person. Maybe you talk yourself out of these things because of insecurity because you’ve never tried these things, or don’t know what to expect, or don’t want to get hurt, or don’t think you’re worthy. Trust that your intuition is guiding you to these things for a reason, and that if they themselves don’t work out or have any sort of longevity, that it is guiding you to a more authentic version of yourself.
One of the many jobs I’ve had over my life, one was as a writer for interactive stories for apps on your phone. One was forty chapters long, and since I had to turn each chapter in for a deadline in order to get paid, I had to get fairly expedient with what I was writing. Since the story was super strange, whatever weird thing that came to my mind at 2am (a time that I’m in bed way before now…we’ll talk about balance and burnout in another blog entry), I threw it in there. There was one particular small scene that I wrote that I didn’t think too much about, then 20 chapters later turned into a huge story line. I was going to dismiss it initially when I had the idea, but left it, and it eventually paid off.
Like with life, sometimes we have impulses to do things, and sometimes we have to play the long game with meaning if its meaning doesn’t automatically present itself. Just know that this is the thing that makes you you, that there is something unique inside your heart that says “HEY GO TOWARD THIS” when others say something else. Just remember to find yourself worthy enough, and to be open and vulnerable enough sometimes to follow it, knowing that this is all a part of your journey.
On the other side of the coin here, have you thought of doing something or being with someone or going somewhere and you get a tight feeling in your chest? Do you leave from hanging out with someone and feel depleted or just plain bad? That is your gut telling you that these situations are not right for you and it is guiding you to look for, or choose an option that feels right. You don’t need to twist yourself into knots to make things right just because they are in front of your face. This again takes flexing the long game muscle again to know that this space that is left without these people or these places, can be filled with something that is much higher for you. More importantly though, remembering that if you want more, and feel you want to be in a higher vibe situation, want that, and allow the space for yourself to find it, or for it to find you.
Of course there are times when we may do things we don't want to do out of loyalty to our significant others or other loved ones. There are other times where we feel like we don't want to do something and actually end up having a wonderful time.
I'm not suggesting blowing off everything that doesn't feel good to you. Oft times, while you may not feel like doing something, there is still an urgency still there to do it, and that again is your gut saying, "go forth anyway.” And if things don’t appear to go your way sometimes when you WANT to go somewhere, or do something and be with someone, know there is a lesson there for you.
Sometimes, when we’re out of balance we also confuse desperation with this intuitive urgency, like feeling we need to act in a situation when really we shouldn't. We find ourselves spiraling into feeling so scattered that we don't know which way is up, but we just have to do something!
In these moments, STEP BACK, BREATHE, AND BE STILL, until something calm and clear comes to you. When in the position of making the right decision, you should never feel on the brink of insanity.
Information from our gut isn't always what we want to hear either, like maybe deep down we know a person isn't right for us, but it's hard for us to let go. Or maybe you don't feel like going out or to an event, but you fear you may be missing out on something, so you go anyway. Perhaps you may get an interview for what you think is your dream job, but something doesn't feel right about it.
Listen to yourself, then take the next step with courage and self-respect toward what is right for you. Even if you don't know what that is yet, know that what is right will eventually present itself if you just have a little faith.